Strengths?

Throughout our lives we have taken plenty of those "personality tests". I remember one of them said I needed to be a stunt double. So maybe I'll just drop out of school, never finish this blog post and go to Hollywood and apply for a stunt double job. I have been told I look like a number of famous people. Including, but not limited to Roy from the Arrow, Dean from Super Natural and Frodo from Lord of The Rings. (I think that one was my height.)Either way, I took yet another personality test to let me know more about myself that I already "didn't"' know. And these are the results I got.

Positivity

I remember when I told one of my friends this they laughed out loud. Literally. I'm not saying that like every white girl does to any text. She really did. Well, maybe it was more of a scoff. Whatever. "You are one of the most negative and cynical people I know." In one of my classes we had to write a goal we wanted for the semester and my goal was to not think people are completely stupid. But, all in all. Here's a picture to describe why I'm positive. If you notice, my tie has a dark streak down it. Yes, that squirrel peed on my tie. And do you see the one in my pocket? It pooped in there. My reaction was that it would make for a better picture. I have typed and retyped this sentence on how to rap up me as a positive person but...I can't seem to find a good ending sentence. When life poops and pees on you, take a picture. It will last longer.

Adaptability 

The next trait I got stamped with I actually fully approve and am rather happy about. I am adaptable. I can go with the flow and actually I prefer to do that. Now, how can I adapt a picture to fit this them... This is a girl from my mission. Her name is Jenny and she is like six foot and some inches. And me, well, I get a little sensitive about my lack of height so we will just say I am a lot shorter than her. But we wanted to take a picture together without her looking like a giant compared to me, so what did I do? I adapted to my environment, found a curb and poof. I look taller. (If anyone actually reads this, ask me about the story of me, a girl, a curb and a kiss. It's a good one.)

Strategic

Now this next strength is kind of like positivity, I see it and then I don't. According to all knowing gallup I am strategic. In some aspects of my life, I strongly disagree with this. I have put my foot into my mouth so many times I have lost count. But, I also do think before I act soemtimes. Me and my friends wanted to have a camp fire, on a frozen pond. But, here is the math of why this wouldn't work. Heat + Snow = Water. And Water puts out fire. So what did I do? I got a metal basket that was elevated about two inches and we put the logs in it and poof. Fire on a frozen pond. 

Woo

The next one is called Woo. (Winning others over.) When I first saw this I thought, Well, guess I'm a cheerleader? Here we go team! Woo! It really just means you are good with people. And even though I think a lot of people are idiots, I know this is one of my strengths. I have done and said a lot of things I shouldn't have. And I gotten away with more than I should have.  A lot of it I would contribute to my ability to win others over. (I still think they should have called it something else.) This is just a little note some customers left me at work just testifying that, yes, I am good with people. If you can't take my word for it, trust these fourteen year old girls note they left me. 

Ideation

My last strength is ideation. (I'm good with ideas.) And I can sum this one up with one story. I served an LDS mission. Basically it's two years of serving people. We have a mission president. He is like our boss and keeps us in line. And a mission president is in charge of a specific area and a certain amount of missionaries. He had about three hundred to keep track of. And when I finished my mission one of the last things he said to me was, "Goodrich, you are probably the most unconventional missionary I have ever had." Was that a compliment or a diss? I'm not sure. But, I thought outside of the box. A lot. It got me into trouble but I met people and made friends that I could not have done if I didn't use my strength of ideation.

Yes, it was my idea to dress up like girls for Halloween. Yes, we got into trouble. But it was so worth it.

Awkward Couples

Here's to those who wear those weird clothes
That quotes netflix shows who nobody knows

We thought the only A's they'd get is on tests
And their only king or queen will be in chess

And yet, the rest of us normal people
Who thought we'd say I do under a steeple

We are alone with our netflix tonight
And the weird are snuggled up all tight

They have their weird quirky phrases
And give each other uncomfortable gazes

And somehow in the unknown world
Their weirdness got them the guy or girl

Let them fly and flock together
I guess they deserve forever

I'm just fine being on my own
It's cool I'll just die forever alone

Something Below for Me

This world has been conquered and tamed,
No way for me to receive my glory and fame.

The unknown is known and there is no mystery

That there's nothing up here for me.

At night under my blanket folds,

I remember how my bed time stories were told.

Of swashbuckling pirates of old,

Realizing where they hid their treasures of gold.

Staying on the surface isn't meant for me,

If I want to find their hidden treasury.

I look around,

Then break first ground.

There's something below for me.

Just my feet are below the dirt.

Getting a little messy never did seem to hurt.

A quick shower will wash this right off,
I haven't even developed the miners cough.

There's something below for me

Up to my waste in dirt my shovel hits something hard,

I didn't really dig that far.

Put my hands in the dirt and shift the ground,

To my shock, 

Like Charlie Brown, 

I got a rock.

I hope there's something below for me.

My head is below the surface now but nothing was ever free

To an ambitious company.

If I want my coins, rubies and jade,

Ill have to just keep stomping my blade.

Maybe there's something below for me.

I have not found my treasure chest,

Maybe staying on the surface was best.

But I can't stop now,

I've just got to keep pushing my plow.

There's something below for me...we'll see.

I'll need help out of this prison I've dug,

All in search for a wishful love.

I've been in this hole for years,

And I'm finally realizing my fears,

There's nothing below for me.

I have lost the light,

I am a filthy, lonesome, unwanted sight.

I don't remember how to have a life above,

All I know is what's in this pit I've dug.

I don't know how to keep living,

So I guess, I'll just keep digging. 

The Butterfly

I look in my net

And what do I find

This butterfly stuck

In the net entwined

I caught this butterfly you see

Do I take it in, cage it for curiosity?

Or let it fly, let it go free?

Just wait and we will have to see

Curiosity killed the cat

Imagine that

I never meant to hurt you

He didn't mean to take her virtue

Explore the world, find new lands

Didn't know they'd work for colorless white man

The doctors tried their best, they took a guess

And now we have people addicted to their medical mess

Pretty little wings

Such a small tender little thing

I'll pin it on my wall

Disscet it, to learn it all

All these questions we wonder why

Wonder what we'll see

Gotta find whats at the end of the tunnel

Got to feed our curiosity 

Let freedom ring, let it soar, let it sing

That sounds like such a beautiful thing

The man can't pay his debt

Sentence to do is time

He helps him out

He pays his fine

Slammed her brakes, the bike flew far

She took his life with her speeding car

The people thought for sure, what they would do to her

Pressed no charges, let her go

Didn't even hit her with a single blow

Pretty little wings

Such a small tender little thing

In a prison I could have locked you away

And there you would had to stay

Faster than a child singing A B C

The butterfly is gone, the butterfly is free

We have to be curious to find a way

To help them get through the day

It's not the answer but it's a solution

It's Helping us stop this cancerous evolution

As far as we know

We might have never discovered chemo

Pretty little wings

Such a small tender little thing

It will never fly

Cause we wondered why

I let it die

I killed the little butterfly

I let the man go for I thought it was right

Let him run off into the night

Not a second thought, not a second guess

For my conscious knows whats best

The gun shots fill my ears

I see the body bleeding tears

I let him go, what have I done?

Didn't look long enough, didn't see his gun

Pretty little wings

Such a small tender little thing

I let it go about an hour ago

It is happy it is free

What about me?

I still have that hunger of curiosity

I look in my net and I see another

Maybe I caught the last ones brother

Pretty little wings

Such a small tender little thing

Where to start

How to begin

Do I let it out or take it in?

Me

I look up
I look down
I spin and turn around
There's no one here
There's no one there
There's no one anywhere
It's just me, myself and I

Before, Time alone was time to die
No one would have missed my goodbye
If I was alone, no one cared
Moments with me no one shared
No one bothered to be there

Now its me, just me
And no one I can see
It's strange how I feel free
I enjoy myself and I
I like being me.

The Early RM

I step off the plane and look directly down
Hoping to dodge the disappointed frowns

"What are you doing here?"
"You were supposed to be gone for another year."

"Sorry to hear that but when do you go back?"
It wasn't two years, a full effort you indeed lack.

There looks say, "He probably came home for dishonorable reasons."
"He couldn't even last for a whole four seasons."


I had dreamed of my triumphant return
They think in Hell I'll probably burn.

I went out there to serve God, isn't that enough?
A stain in there white clothes, and unwanted scuff.

I had longed of my friends and my home
Now I'm back, I've never felt so alone.

You came home early, you're weren't a missionary, you're not one of them.
When you serve a whole two years, you can then be honored as a RM.

Hope

Hope is the reason why you pray
believing in a God, who,
watches you night and day.

Hope is the light  in the dark
wondering, looking, searching
for that spark.

Hope can be with you till you die
They can take your wings
but, with hope, you can fly.